To anyone who is thinking about killing themselves: please watch this
This is from a girl who’s sister committed suicide. If you are looking for a sign not to commit, this is it.
Please share this so everyone can see.
I cried. I realized that if I were to commit suicide this is the kind of pain I would be leaving behind. Seeing her in pain, even after all this time, made me imagine the pain that my own sister would be in. My family. Friends. The unnecessary pain that they would have to go through even after years of my passing. And to be honest, I don’t think it’s worth it and fair for me to decide to just end my own life and pass that pain to someone else. Because not only would I leave the pain behind but also the people that loves me. They’ll never get to see me grow up, celebrate my birthdays with me, my father will never get to walk me down the aisle, they would never get to see the person I could’ve become. And obviously, neither would I. We didn’t wait to let ourselves see that things might actually get better. I know things can get shitty, and also pretty fucking exhausting, but please. When you’re feeling so low that you think there’s no way out or there’s no point anymore, don’t just give up. Let people reach out to you and help you out. They may not understand it how you do, but you’ve gotta realize that you’re not the only one hurting. They hurt when they see you hurting too. And when you’re happy, so are they. It may not always seem like it and they may not always show it, but they do. When you decide to give up on yourself, you’re also giving up on those people that loves you. You gave up hoping that you’ll ever get better and you gave up also hoping that they can help you out of it. Don’t lose hope because you never know what the next day will hold. It may seem to go on forever and it can’t ever get better but things aren’t always what they seem. Just keep fighting. Every step makes a difference no matter how small. Every step you take is a step closer to getting better. It’s kind of how Dory told Marlin to keep swimming and the more he swam the closer he got to his son. I know it sounds cliche and all but it’s true. Just don’t give up. You’ve just got to keep swimming :)
Stay strong. You’re doing great. :3
Sorry this is in color. By the way you know she’s in true pain when she tries to laugh or make jokes but we know that smile is fake. Know that you may feel like nobody cares but truly they do.